Last week I read through the book of Job, my pastor’s wife lost her battle with brain cancer, and Dana had to go to the emergency room because of some bleeding. Wow, what a week. Talk about pain and suffering. (Dana is OK by the way and baby is perfectly fine) I don’t think it’s a coincidence that I was reading through the book of Job while all this was going on. God is in control of EVERYTHING! I challenge you to read the last 5 chapters of Job and tell me He isn’t.
Anyway, Friday night as we were getting ready for bed Dana yells from the bathroom, “Chad I’m bleeding!” There were many emotions and thoughts running through my mind at this point. Most prevalent, especially during the drive to the ER was, oh no not again. I had to remind myself over and over that God is good and everything will be fine. He is in control. Because of these recent trials, I have been thinking about Levi more than usual and how much he was actually suffering. It reminded me that the doctors only gave him two weeks to live after we found out Dana was pregnant. It reminded me our prayer for healing, our prayer just to be able to meet him. I believe that’s the answered prayer we received. According to the doctors Levi wasn’t even given a chance to be born . He was born and we received the blessing to know him for 100 days. God is good, even though sometimes things don’t go the way we want or are praying they go.
Job lost everything and the one thing that stuck out to me after reading the book was that God never gave Job and explanation of why He allowed all that suffering to happen to him. Instead, in the last five chapters, God just describes how he created everything, and that nothing happens without Him ordaining it. Who am I to demand an explanation from God? He saved my soul! I remember a sermon about the paralytic who was lowered through the roof to Jesus. The first thing Jesus says is, “your sins are forgiven.” What!? The dudes probably thinking, I came here to be healed not to receive forgiveness. That’s the point though, even if Jesus doesn’t do anything else for you for the rest of your life will you be satisfied with His forgiveness?
The loss of pastor’s wife was a huge hit to many in our church family. There is a lot of pain right now. But you know what? This life is temporary. We need to always remember the eternal life we hold. Yes pastor is sad that his wife isn’t with him anymore and I’m sad that Levi isn’t. But imagine the smile on her face as she holds her daughter in Heaven for the first time. Imagine the smile on her face as she watches her daughter and Levi playing in the field. I can’t wait for the day I get to hold him again.
Pain sucks. Period. I remember telling myself after Levi died that I had two choices; continue to remember that God is good, He has a plan and believe that He has good things for me or quit. Please don’t quit, I urge you to remember these things even in the midst of unbearable pain.
“He will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and there will no longer be any death; there will no longer be any mourning, or crying, or pain; the first things have passed away.” Revelation 21:4
Love Never Fails,